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REFLECTIONS ON A LIFE:
Looking for the Right Combination
by Nancy Prottengeier
We all reflect on our lives. At some point relationships, illness, career changes, death, birth, and quiet moments pole vault us into a sense of inner inquiry. We look for the key that will unlock our true happiness. At each of these crossroads we are given the opportunity to examine our perceptions. Often there is the illusion that what we seek is found in some external parameter. I have been given many opportunities for such reflection.
When I was six months old I was rolled into an operating room for the first of many surgeries to come. By the time I was a bright-eyed, enthusiastic and playful four year old, I had been through a series of operations. Each one yielded hope for my parents that I would be well. It was the surgery when I was four that I vividly remember. There was an orderly who rolled me into the elevator on my way to the operating room. I recall his eyes and his smile. To a little girl on a gurney he seemed larger than life. I wish I could thank him. To this day I am touched by his calm and sweet demeanor with me.
My recollections include the excruciating pain in such a small body and those who did their very best to help me. That surgery was the last of my visits to the hospital for many years. The pain returned when I was 11 years old. My body remembered things of which I had no conscious awareness. My physical experience had no context. The pain made no sense. As I grew into adolescence and, then, young adulthood, the medical doctors provided medications in an attempt to ease my discomfort. By now I was re-arranging life events, trips, holiday plans, school, work and social obligations as best I could to work around the symptoms my body would manifest every few weeks. Doctors kept switching my pharmaceuticals as they failed to have any effect after a short time. Some medications made me nauseous. Some accumulated in my system and ultimately caused hallucinations and convulsions. Some worked for a time, giving me hope that I had finally found the “right combination,” only to lose their pain-reducing effect and send me deeper into fear and frustration. I wondered if I would be like this my whole life. What had I done to deserve such punishment? My symptoms affected my relationships, my career, and my quality of life.
When I was in my thirties, my cousin was diagnosed with breast cancer. She was about my age. With great diligence she explored complimentary medical alternatives along with traditional care. After many months of brutal allopathic treatment and post-op recovery she went into remission. Her cancer returned after nearly five years of hope and being symptom-free. I was stunned. It was then that I began to explore what my career in mental health could offer her. I believed to the core of my soul she would regain her health. She died shortly after her cancer returned. She was such a young woman and it had a profound impact on me. I believed she could have lived if we had just found the “right combination” in time.
While looking for alternatives to help my cousin I came across the science of Ayurveda. When she died so did my exploration of alternative healing options for the physiology. I focused instead on pursuing my academic study in psychology, looking for the answers to life’s questions there. Ironically, years later, a dance therapist at the hospital where I worked suggested I look into Ayurveda for my own physical pain. I passed it off as kind, sympathetic advice. So many people were so eager to help but I was tired of chasing hope. I had succumbed, mostly, to the fact I was to bear the burden of what my body suffered. What I didn’t know was that Ayurveda, and ultimately Source Legacy, had just come into my life.
Years later I moved across the country, which meant a new set of doctors who wanted to initiate their own set of tests, surgeries and procedures. I had been through it all numerous times before and couldn’t bear the thought of being tested, injected and cut open yet again. As I said to one surgeon: “I live in this body, and each time it is cut open and explored I am left with another scar, memory and trauma.”
Remembering my cousin’s determination to live I plunged into my own dedicated search for answers. Ayurveda kept surfacing. This time I paid attention. I found a chiropractor who had Ayurvedic training and my treatment began. My symptoms became more severe before they improved but I truly believed I could be well. Ayurveda was my new lifeline. Not surprisingly, this very quiet and unassuming practitioner referred me to those with greater authority in Ayurveda, as it was revealed that my symptoms were more complex than initially assessed. There were obstacles with this referral: these authorities came to this country from India, getting an appointment was terribly complex and expensive and there was no opportunity for follow-up treatment. I pursued it anyway. This was the reservoir of my renewed hope. Soon I realized Ayurveda was no longer going to simply be a treatment modality in my life, it was a greater part of my life path – and I studied every venue available to me. Eventually I went to two schools of Ayurveda and incorporated the teachings and practices in my everyday life, as well as my chosen career of psychology. My health improved as did my optimism. Ayurveda seemed to be the missing link I had always known existed and searched for so many years to find.
NOTE: Ayurveda is an art and a science that addresses the whole person; the mind (which Ayurveda believes to lie in the heart), the physiology, and the spirit. It is an inclusive philosophy which adheres to balance and reverence of life, all life, including living in harmony and respect with nature.
My studies ignited a passion for healing that had been a consistent thread throughout my life but was frayed by so many years of pain and suffering. I was quite sure I was on my way to perfect health. I had found the “right combination” in my life and the world was going to be my playground. I was yet to discover the source of a deeper awakening.
Within my own healing process came the opportunity to resolve deeply repressed energies that had been buried for lifetimes. My physical body was finally strong enough to handle the reverberation of such an endeavor. It was not by conscious choice that I experienced this releasing. I did not wake up one day and decide “okay, today I am going to face my deepest fears.” Instead, it was a gradual escalation of emotions that began to surface and release. With this purging of stuck energies came another set of symptoms. They were completely foreign to me and dramatic in their manifestation. I knew how to manage the symptoms familiar to this body but this experience was intensely different. Nothing I had used in the past to find relief worked. I did my best and found a balance that seemed to manage life without too much strain... until it didn’t anymore.
Sometimes it is one simple incident in life that brings the whole thing tumbling down. In hindsight, I wonder how such a simple and now seemingly insignificant event could have brought me to my knees, but it did. It was the one last flake of snow that caused the avalanche in my life. And it was a mighty avalanche. Everything I knew to be true no longer existed. Everything seemed void of substance. I was disconnected from myself, from God, from my relationships and from my heart. To talk with me, see me or watch me navigate in life would not have revealed the state of my being; I was masking my fragile vulnerability from others and it was exhausting me on all levels. I felt only grief and isolation as I smiled and carried on with the normal schedule and familiarity of life. Time became a series of hours and days and weeks of feeling separate and alone.
Years before, a friend had told me about Source Legacy and suggested I explore it as an option for further understanding of the healing process. As was the pattern in my life, I asked a respected teacher their advice. They had never heard of Source Legacy, and therefore, did not have an opinion one way or the other. I did not pursue the option. Years later, when I was in the throes of the avalanche aftermath, another friend suggested I explore Source Legacy. Just as my Ayurveda discovery took me years to recognize, so it was with Source Legacy – except this time, at the second suggestion, I realized I had been given the same opportunity, again, and it was most likely not a coincidence.
I made the phone call and began the retrieval of my Soul.
It seems difficult enough to re-claim ones s/Self. Some might even believe that would be the conclusion of the story with a happy ending. At another place in time that might have been enough. But I was given the chance for something more. It was, yet again, a choice to grasp the brass ring or deny myself. At so many stages of my life I had been given opportunities to spread my wings and fly. But there were hidden fears. Resistance was born out of a denial of my own power. This time was different. My body was finally healthy enough to handle the vibration needed to absorb the emotional and spiritual shift. The teachers were all right in front of me. The courage was somewhere deep within me. The time was now.
It was through my work at Source Legacy that I realized the “right combination” always existed. It was within me and had been there all along. I knew this intellectually but this time I was beginning to own it. It takes skilled and compassionate healers to assist the growth defined as claiming oneself. It takes someone seeing what is invisible to others. It takes a thoughtful and respectful approach to guide the steps of assimilating all that is and all that can be. It is not always an easy or comfortable task, but I have learned it is always worth the work. Healing is creating harmony within the matrix of the mind, body and soul and defining the essence of the pure Self. Few are gifted with the true grace of being a healer. It takes patience, wisdom, a sense of humor (!), authentic power, Light, an open and fearless heart, time, focus and energy. My contact with Source Legacy provided such healers and the forum to do the work at hand.
I have been given the rare and exquisite gift of teachers/healers, and I am deeply grateful. I thank these profound and gracious Lightworkers: Eddie Gobb, Dr. Kshirsagar, Dr. Vasant Lad, Ron Brown Grayson, and Shelley Oliver. They are masters of this adventure we call life. They are givers of great bounty and abundance. They are the epitome of what they teach: living from Truth, expanding the heart, standing in authentic power, capturing the present moment with full attention, knowing (not just hoping) there is a better tomorrow, and accepting responsibility for S/self, humanity and the planet.
I started out as a tiny baby with a body trying to communicate the lessons of the soul. The body that was once interpreted as a punisher and enemy was, in fact, filled with the grace of Divine Language. It took pain to get my attention. It manifested physically, emotionally and spiritually. It was the pain that delivered motivation to persistently search for answers. And the answers came more abundantly than I could have ever imagined.
It is important that I acknowledge another teacher/healer in my life. It was my father. He taught me what love felt like, that it truly existed in absolute pure form, and that everything I ever needed was provided. He gave me abundance in all its exquisite manifestations. He taught me I could have whatever I wanted. To a child that meant one thing. To an adult woman that means something far different; it means I can be myself and that I will be embraced. I can live abundantly and confidently. I am healthy. I have choices that come from fear or love and each has a different set of consequences. It means I get to have relationships with people who celebrate life with all of its dichotomies. It means we are all One. I am no different that anyone else. Everyone can claim their birthright of unadulterated joy and knowing. Everyone can be, do, and have what they dream. It is within each of our life stories.
It was through a broken body and spirit that I found Ayurveda and Source Legacy. As I share reflections on a life that found the right combination and unlocked the fear I am grateful. I am free from suffering and constant pain. When pain of any magnitude revisits I have the tools and resources to release the patterns that seduce constriction. I know when I expand I will find safety and comfort, joy and freedom.
I invite those of you reading these words to breathe, expand, unlock fear, and recognize your own innate wisdom. Truth and love exist. When they are claimed they can never again be tarnished or taken away.
© 2008 by Nancy Prottengeier
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DATING TODAY
by Hope Piza
I think I have relationship problems, or at least problems with romantic relationships. I realize things are only a problem if you make them a problem. The problem for me is that I really would like some kind of long-term relationship and the possibility of having a family with the right person. I’ve been pondering this for a while because every time I start dating someone and feel like I am making progress the whole situation crashes and burns. I know it is partly my fault due to the fact that I am stubborn and pig-headed at times. I also have a propensity for liking men who have issues with commitment. Is that a reflection of myself? Maybe that is a small part of it. The very thing I desire is the thing I fear.
As a woman in the world and an energetic being who definitely displays more feminine than male energy, I realize that there is an imbalance between the two. I hate to say that the two are at war with one another because in my heart I feel like “haven’t we had enough?” I will say that I think male and female energies are just not “getting” one another right at this moment. I’ve heard more than one person comment on the fact that the feminine is really evolving while the male energy is just stagnant for most. This is just a generalization because this does not hold true across the board. Trust me; I know. Many of my girlfriends are lunatics (please don’t wonder if you are one of them because it doesn’t matter who is and who isn’t. Plus a lot of you have willingly admitted it, as have I).
I have been asking all my friends about this and the irony is that my guy friends blame the girls and my girlfriends blame the guys. Bottom line: if you want to challenge yourself right now in this world then date!!! Whether you are more masculine or more feminine you will most likely learn a lot about yourself. I often feel crazy and out of sorts when I am dating, and I really would like to blame the men of this world – but I can’t quite go there because I feel sorry for men. Women are becoming so independent that the old ways of relationships no longer apply, and a lot of my male friends tell me they feel lost. They don’t seem to know how to relate to us and that becomes frustrating for my sisters and me. As a result I hear (and, yes, I have said it myself at times) how men suck!!
My fear around this whole situation is that women will become the dominating force if we are not careful, if we continue with the attitude that men are bad and the reason for our problems. I pray for a time when we all empower ourselves as men and women and respect one another for our differences. I often wonder what would happen if we looked at the masculine within and really took the time to honor that portion of our being. Would it cause a ripple and make it easier for others (especially the masculine) to heal themselves? I’ve really been contemplating this question the past couple of days and it makes sense to me. I know not every single thing is a reflection, but we do create our realities and I just can’t put all the blame on the men I’ve dated for my misfortunes.
It’s interesting to me that most people I know want to have a lasting relationship – or at least a good run with another person. My observation is that fear is the biggest culprit. If we let enough of it sink in then the wall comes, leading to Splitsville, and then we do it all over again. In my opinion, the missing link is the Highest Divinity. At least for me I lose sight of spirituality sometimes. My faith can be very tenuous on a daily basis and that affects all aspects of life, especially in a partnership.
I have been thinking about the difference in male and female energy. Energy flows in through our feminine (left) side and outward through the masculine (right) side. Why is it so hard to have these two in balance? The two energies work like the infinity symbol, constantly making a circuit so that we can create from the Highest Realms. It seems the male energy is hurting and is having a hard time letting that go and letting the energy flow outward so that it can be cleared. The men I have dated or who have been my friend seem to reflect this theory. Most of the men I know have been hurt by relationships and have experienced great pain because of this.
To really let someone in and be vulnerable is not easy and I feel it’s because there has been great disappointment in the past. I have realized this in myself lately and I have realized my own reluctance to commit. This reluctance to commit is not just in relationships with other people but also with myself. I never thought I had that problem, and yet when I realized this it seemed so obvious: I have never lived in one place longer than five years. I have not been very good at communication over distances. There have been few things that I have stuck with for very long. These things are just a few things I have noticed in my life that have clued me in to my lack of commitment.
I am grateful for the awareness I have gained from really taking a look at what is going on with my fear of commitment. I know I have work to do, but I seem to be much more content with myself these days. I have gone through whole days without even thinking about being in a relationship. I used to think about this subject daily. I have more energy to put toward other things and I feel like something inside of me is shifting. I am responsible for my own happiness and, having had this opportunity to really look at what is going on, my awareness of this fact has expanded.
© 2008 by Hope Piza
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SACRIFICE
by James Tennant
I never gave the concept of sacrifice much thought until recently. That may be because sacrifice was my way of living life up to this point. Sacrifice connotes giving something up that you really want or need, but giving it up anyway for the higher good of someone else or many people. And to me that’s always been a good thing. How noble such an act is, I felt; isn’t that what we are supposed to do? But I started to realize how much of my own power, my attention, and my energy I was giving away and how often I wasn’t allowing others to find their own power.
Because sacrifice was so ingrained in me from many lifetimes, it was what felt natural. In fact, if I did receive anything there was an automatic response in me to give back to the point of deficit (whether it was time, money, or even affection). I had become so habituated to not taking, not having, and not asking for energetic balance that accepting anything made me a little uncomfortable. It took many years to allow the people in my life to give to me without me feeling guilty or feeling that I needed to reciprocate in any way, to just accept and be grateful. However, I had no problem teaching others that it was okay to receive what I had to give without expectation or a need to reciprocate. I always wanted people to be comfortable and content, even if I had to sacrifice my own attention, money or power.
I have come to understand just how much sacrifice starts in the mind, how often I would become fixated on a relationship or problem, just analyzing or questioning the situation over and over again or wondering what the person was thinking or doing. I know that experiences in our lives have to integrate and be processed, but I would open myself up so wide to the problems of others and make their problems my own mentally that I often lost me. This just played havoc with my mind and, ultimately, it began to manifest in my physical body. The Navajo believe that when the body gets sick it is due to the spirit/soul being out of balance with nature, and I believe this is the state I would often find myself in. I was not in harmony with nature, with the balance of the universe. I would take on situations or problems for people, process or transmute those issues for them and, in turn, they would feel better and I would feel poor. I was convinced that I would feel badly for a shorter amount of time then they would and so it was better that I “took care of it.” This very behavior was the way Jesus worked and ultimately he sacrificed his life to “try” and repair human consciousness. Look at us…perhaps things would be a lot worse if he hadn’t done what he did, but I’m not living in Utopia…are you?
Sacrifice went on in my life unconsciously for all of my childhood and most of my adult life; it’s apparent in the “people pleasers” of the world. As I became more sensitive to the happenings in the present moment, I gained awareness that this exchange is what was going on. The idea that I can process another person’s problems better than they can may sound quit egotistical. Well, it is egotistical. Even though I felt I was doing it out of concern and love, the ego was still very much involved because the truth is that I can’t process anyone else’s issues better than they can. In the short term they may feel better if I process things for them, but in the long term that issue, that lesson is theirs to learn – not mine.
This was a pattern that has been with me for many lifetimes and was a method that was, perhaps, more efficient in the past. Now, however, the universe is asking – telling us – that this can no longer be the way; we all have to face our own karma, lessons, and fears in this lifetime. They must be confronted and healed. As a teacher I have become very clear that I can only shed light on what those lessons may be for others and point them in the right direction. They must do the work and have the realization, though. As teachers and light workers we all have our own way of demonstrating that assistance. But I’ve realized that living in sacrifice isn’t the way anymore and that there is a difference between living in sacrifice and living truly within your power. I’ve become more conscious of when I’m making sacrifices on any level, and when that occurs I ask if it is appropriate not just for me but for everyone. Finding that balance and creating that awareness will be different for everyone, but we have to start understanding a fundamental truth that can liberate us all: God does not ask us to sacrifice anything.
© 2007 by James Tennant
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PUSHED FROM THE NEST
Teaching the Teacher
by
Marilyn Pyle, Ph.D.
In the Spring my daughters and I have a ritual: We wake in the early morning and head out to Kraft Azalea Park. The park is on a chain of lakes in Winter Park, Florida in the midst of upper-crust neighborhoods and Central Florida urban sprawl where the white herons come to roost and raise their babies high in the pin oaks and cypress trees.
The noise that pervades the usual quiet serenity of the park never ceases to amaze us as it becomes the heron’s nursery for the next six weeks with baby herons growing from hatchlings to fledglings to birds of flight. It is a wondrous and sometimes sad event as we check each week on the progress of the nests, revealing at first only bobbing little heads and hungry open beaks being fed regurgitated meals by their parents. Giant white herons balance on the branches of the pin oaks and cypress trees while the scattered bodies of tiny fish litter the landscape below. Sometimes amid the debris we will find light blue egg shells and sometimes the lifeless body of a little fallen angel, just a tiny rumple of down and pin feathers. My daughters and I collect the large molted feathers of the white herons from the ground, their gossamer plumes so fragile they remind us of the feathers from angel wings.
As the weeks pass we watch the little birds grow into gangling teenagers with necks craning and wings flapping, each one squawking and squirming for more room in the tiny nest as their parents hold reign from the branches nearby. The fish carcasses littering the ground below are larger now, and the full-bellied babies begin to envision life beyond the confines of the crowded nest.
On one visit we spotted with some concern one of the teenage herons walking about on the ground below the nest, still fluffy with down, but with beautiful feathered wings. His uncertain demeanor told us that he’d probably been perched on the side of the nest when he fell – or was pushed – but this brave and wondrous little fellow didn’t become a casualty as some do; instinct told this one to spread his wings and glide to safety. Or maybe he flew. One thing was for sure: he was discovering his wings with absolute passion. We watched in delight as he ran through the park, flapping his wings with frenzied abandon, trying to figure out how on earth he should become airborne.
I wondered aloud to my twenty-two year-old daughter if she thought he would be okay. “Totally,” she said simply and steadily, fixing her wise old eyes on me. “Some of the babies fall from the nest when they have no wings and the fall kills them; they’re just too young to fly. But look at him! He’s running with his wings spread – he’s trying. He’ll figure it out. He’s ready.” She paused and laughed. “Or maybe he just didn’t like what they were serving for dinner.” With that she opened her arms and ran side-by-side with the teenage heron down the lake and into the distance.
As a student in the safe and cozy nest of Source Legacy I remember my own journey of discovery. I remember gobbling the information fed to me by my mentor and teacher. I remember the long nights of hand-holding and crying my eyes out at painful levels of self-discovery when we first learned to be honest with ourselves, admitting at long last the lies we tell ourselves and others before taking those first tentative baby steps toward responsibility for all our choices. As each healing process revealed more and more, we learned with our teacher how to let go and how to “peel the onion.” I remember there were times when I felt I must have had the biggest onion in the world because these processes never seemed to end. But as the work helped me strip away more and more layers of that onion, I began to uncover greater and greater truths about myself, about the world, about the universe and my creations within it, and my own struggle to answer the really big life questions that seem to stump most of us: “Who am I? What am I?” and “What is my purpose?”
And then one day it happened. Standing in the doorway to the classroom, questioning if I was ready, wondering if I knew all that I needed to know, and doubting whether I could actually do it on my own, I found myself freefalling. Like that gangly little heron, I too had been pushed from the nest!
“Open your wings,” I heard my teacher’s voice say.
But what will I teach? What can I possibly offer anyone? What do I really know? “Everything you need to know,” was the gentle reply. And I realized I had safely landed in the world.
When we are at this place we really learn what we have been taught. The fact that we find ourselves standing at all means we’ve already taken the baby steps toward walking on our own. But it is not until we discover our talent that we really learn to fly. A teacher can instruct and guide us, illuminating how we might use our God-given tools, but it is up to us to find our gifts. This level of discovery, this part of the path belongs exclusively to us. We find that our own life is our classroom, that our course of study, thesis, dissertation, and talent are the expression of our Light. “Expression” does not necessarily mean “profession,” but rather how we choose to BE in that profession and, mostly, how we choose to BE in our lives. Though our teachers likely know from the very start what our talents are, it is only we who can give those talents purpose. It is a journey prepared for us, but all connections along the way are ours to make.
What do I do?
And I heard my teacher say: “Choose.”
Now that I have become a teacher with students of my own, I still sometimes feel that I have the biggest onion in the world, for life is an ongoing process and I am still choosing and creating within it. Thinking back now to that lovely Spring day by the lake with my daughter running beside that gangly teenage heron, I am reminded of the purity of their joy – and my own.
Within the remembrance of that joy I again I heard my teacher’s voice: “Teach what you love. Love what you teach.”
And I’ll be darned if that gangly heron who had fallen from his nest didn’t open his wings and soar like the wind across the lake!
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ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS:
A Spiritual Practice of Forgiveness and Unconditional Love
by Rossella Rossi
As one wily teacher puts it, “intimate relationships are good practice; they teach us to open our hearts in hell.”
For most of us on serious spiritual paths, it is easier to find balance, peace, and purity as light beings when we are single. The single life may from time-to-time be a little lonely, perhaps prone to boredom occasionally, but let’s admit it: it is somehow more peaceful. Everything seems under control, we feel proud for keeping ourselves on “the path,” and our spiritual practice is usually solid and grounded. But deep inside we feel that it is too easy and that, really, we are not growing that much. Something is missing.
We ask God, our Guides, our Guardian Angels, and the Universe to bring us this opportunity for growth. Sometimes we are aware of this request at the conscious level, and sometimes we are aware of it only at the soul level. But eventually our prayers are answered: we meet that special person and fall in love. If we are fortunate, our newly beloved falls in love with us, too, and we experience the magic. When there is a spiritual connection in our love relationships we reach a state of bliss and we even feel as though we can transcend this reality together. That first stage of love is deep and unconditional, and we open our hearts and souls to each other and to God. It is heaven.
Of course it takes two people who are at the same level of awareness to experience this blissful state as truly spiritual; it doesn’t happen to everybody and with anybody. And, unfortunately, it doesn’t last for all the couples who experience it. Only a few are mature enough and aware enough to be able to handle and nourish this highly spiritual union. After the first blissful stage, however, “reality” usually kicks in.
As the challenges of everyday life demand our attention, we forget to keep our relationship at that high level. We think just because we reached that depth in our spiritual connection with each other that we will have it at all time. And we forget that our relationship needs to be watered and nurtured and cared for like the beautiful house plants that bring vibrancy and life to our homes. We forget that discipline, attention, time and energy are required to keep the relationship at such an elevated level, just like in any other spiritual practice.
We discover that our beloved is human just like us, and we get overwhelmed by everyday practicality, losing awareness of the deep sacred connection of the united souls. We stop treating our beloved as if he/she were the embodiment of the Divine (which is the truth of all souls), and then we stop looking at them and talking to them from a place of respectful Godliness. We grow disappointed that things no longer feel perfect, that our beloved is not perfect, that the relationship is not perfect – and everything changes.
Instead of keeping our eyes open and our hearts in tune with the soul connection, we get trapped in the external. We are puzzled that our life is no longer in order and that we lost the apparent sense of peace we had before the relationship when we felt strong and “on path.” Now we feel sad, angry, disappointed, deluded, and absolutely not serene! What we have forgotten is that we asked for growth and we got the chance to make it happen through love.
A romantic relationship provides an opportunity for one of the highest spiritual practices. It can be cleansing. It brings out all the emotional garbage we carry with us, all the “bad” about ourselves, all our weaknesses, our fears, and even our spiritual doubts. It is amazing how much ugly stuff we end up showing to the other person when the going gets rough. And so our beloved ends up paying the bill for this extended and expensive therapy session. In return, however, we pay the bill for our beloved, too.
Did we ask for this challenge? Did he/she ask for it? Well, yes, we did. On a soul level we surely did. Believe it or not, our beloved is serving us a great favor, and vice versa. Maybe we are helping each other to pay old Karma, or to learn important soul lessons, or to face our own Self, or (most of all) to find peace, love and serenity in the midst of “romantic heaven and hell.” But life in the middle of this cleansing therapy isn’t easy, and we find ourselves closing our hearts, resenting our beloved for the difficulty of the journey.
We try to run away, but we can’t really stop the process so we try to run yet farther away. We try to hide, we get angry, and we hurt each other. But the souls still long for each other, and the separation is impossible. The inner battle starts: our mind wants to separate from our beloved, pretending that the fault for the “failure” of the relationship rests on the other person’s shoulders. We convince ourselves that we are incompatible, that we’ll find a more suitable partner, and a better relationship. The truth, however, is that we will still be human, any new person we bring in will still be human, and we will still have another human relationship. We will always face challenges and we will always go through some cleansing no matter who we are with. Should we stay, then? Even after we have been hurt, betrayed, or even somehow abused? What does our heart say? And our soul?
If we did once feel and experience that deep soul connection with our partner, most likely it is our time to perfect our practice of forgiveness and unconditional love. Can we still look at our beloved and see God’s beauty in him/her, despite some of the uglier truths that might have emerged? Can we still see the beautiful soul in his/her eyes? Are we capable of letting go of the past as a tool for growth and embracing the present as an opportunity to take the relationship to another level? Can we commit to this rewarding spiritual practice?
If our beloved is in tune with us and ready to invest heart and soul, this is when the true spiritual relationship can begin. If our beloved is not at this point, we can’t force his/her process. It would be disastrous to do so. We need then to realize that we have two options: (1) we can wait patiently with no expectations; or (2) we can leave, thanking our beloved for the miracle of the journey itself – and then process the events and all the emotions involved individually. Both options are perfectly valid. But whatever the choice, the important thing is to keep our hearts open, replacing anger, pain, disappointment and any other negative feelings with love. With or without our beloved, we need the practice of forgiveness and unconditional love.
It is our time to learn how to keep ourselves serene and peaceful and not lose sight of what really matters. It is our time to practice what we have learned in our spiritual studies and be able to see the big picture (as my husband would say), getting ourselves out of the “little drama.”
What have we learned? There is no one to blame and no faults to find. What can we do now? And how? Well, the good news is that we don’t have to do it alone. We are helped at all times. We have tools. And God is always with us. Likewise, our Angels are always around, our Team is on-duty 24/7, Spiritual Guides are always holding our hands, and we can call upon any form and shape of Divine help. These Divine beings look so forward to helping us in our practice of unconditional love and in the process of cleansing fear, pain, resentment, and anger. In fact, it fulfills their purpose.
If the soul union is strong and both partners are willing to invest in this spiritual practice, we are blessed by the opportunity of taking the relationship to yet greater heights and redefining its form, even after everything has fallen apart by conventional standards. If both parties cannot commit to this practice, then it becomes even more important to not leave the relationship saddled with new fear, resentment, anger, or disappointment. Even if we decide to terminate the relationship in its current form, we must take this time as an opportunity to clear our hearts of negative feelings and practice forgiveness, unconditional love, and LETTING GO! It’s not easy, we all know that. But practice makes perfect!
It is like in yoga: after many years of asana practice, one morning we step onto our mat and, magically, our legs go behind our head with ease. This is because we kept practicing faithfully every day. In the same way, one day we’ll wake up and we won’t know anything but unconditional, infinite Divine Love.
© 2006 by Rossella Rossi
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ILLUSION
Wise Words from A Source Legacy Associate
“Illusion” by definition is “a misleading perception of reality”, and since perception is very individual, I concluded that everyone’s reality must be different. As for me, when I think of “illusion” I imagine it is creating my own thoughts as to how I choose to perceive something. After all, everything we think creates manifestation at some level, and our thoughts can easily create illusions if we allow ourselves to get out of the light.
The frustrations of my illusions brought me to a place in my life where I was finally willing to take a journey of discovery into the true meaning of reality, and what I began to understand was how thought forms can create a misconception. Our reality is not always clear to us when we are in the center of our illusions. In order to see truth, we must be able to evaluate objectively so that our thoughts are clear. I realized how important it is to stay in the light and to allow myself to listen to my own intuition. Listening to oneself is where the true essence of reality appears. But the key to staying in reality is not to ignore our thoughts, because our thoughts are so powerful. Misguided thoughts can cause us to create and form a false perception of what the truth may be, and that can get very dangerous on all levels – physically, emotionally, and spiritually. If we choose that path and allow ourselves to be in the dark, it can get very painful and very misleading.
Creating an illusion is a very mental thing which always enlists the ego, and so learning not to project is the key. Staying in the moment from the heart and enjoying each opportunity for what it is worth is the gift – a gift that deepens when we make a conscious effort to be aware and clear. If there are no expectations, we can never be disappointed. Illusions bring disappointment because our egos fantasize and create unreal scenarios in our minds the way they need to perceive things in order to feel safe.
Getting on the path of reality is not always easy. In fact, it can be quite challenging, and the lesson to learn and grow from is staying focused and being in-the-moment. It is very empowering when we can feel the strength around us, when we see the light in front of us and hear the truth inside. It gives us peace of mind to stay present, alert, and mindful. The biggest gift in understanding what an illusion can create is becoming self-aware, insightful, clear...and free.
Ron, thanks again for all your love, light, and support.
Devoted and Dedicated,
Susan
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YOU GAVE YOURSELF AWAY
by Shelley Oliver
Go ahead, admit it: You were walking along minding your own business when suddenly you realized your life felt as though it didn’t belong to you anymore. And you’ve been wondering not only how your life got so upside down, but what the heck you need to do to get it right side up again. What went wrong, then?
I’ll tell you: You gave yourself away to someone. You literally gave your energy to someone you love (exchanged it). That person saw how “up” you were, they observed your ability to make things happen, to create abundance, and they coveted it. You said, “Okay. I see you’re having trouble. I’ll help you out.” A week, a month, two months have gone by now and you realize something is very wrong with your energy – but you haven’t known why. Your abundance has a serious leak and you see no end in sight.
You gave yourself away. You gave your child, your spouse, your lover, your best friend your good, upbeat, positive energy, your drive to succeed, your abundance. You, in turn, took on their energy and have been carrying it around with you and have become ill, tired, weak, and your abundance has disappeared. What went wrong? Someone took your energy without asking your permission and you have done the same in return. A full exchange.
Most of us have such a strong desire to help others succeed (especially those we love) that we occasionally forget this truth: no one can operate with our energy. Each of us is a unique, wonderful INDIVIDUAL. When we divide our energies (giving part of ourselves away), we become less. Each individual body has a specific set of frequencies, vibrations, and waveforms; no two are alike. When we exchange energy with someone else our body treats their energy as a virus and our immune system struggles to protect us from these foreign energies.
You may have given so much of yourself away that there is very little of you left – and because you didn’t ask permission your body (and theirs) is fighting the invading energies even harder. This is the most important part to remember: never, ever give your soul/will away. This is your driver and if you corrupt the soul by giving it away and possibly replacing it with someone else’s, your body and heart can give up. Your body will break down and psychosis (manic depression, as an example) can set in because you feel hopeless and unprotected.
Other issues which arise from exchanging energy include sudden weight gain, unexplained rashes, heart palpitations, and your mind suddenly screaming inside with heightened negative reactions to yourself and everyone else. Your entire being goes into shock. Know, too, that there are people who will deliberately make you angry or create fear in you to steal your energy. There is a simple cure for this disharmony. Do the following process:
State: “I call on my Healing Team and Highest Divine Source (God) to assist us. I ask permission of all beings with whom I have exchanged, to whom I have loaned energy, to assist me in mutually healing. We work together opening our crown chakras and a Universal Channel to Highest Divine Source. We release from all lifetimes (past, present, future) all energies that are not ours, including soul/will energy from every level, plane, dimension, system, realm, kingdom and field. We send these energies up through our crown chakra and Universal Channel to the Ruby Heart of Highest Divine Source. We thank Source for clearing all cords, ties, attachments, programs, codes, devices, and implants from all these energies and then restoring to me. I open my core to receive all core energies. When this is complete I close and lock my core. All other energies which have returned to me I anchor in my physical body, expanding them inward and outward to their proper location. I then ask my Healing Team to assist me in restoring a positive, equal, healthy spin to all my energy centers. I thank and bless Highest Divine Source and Healing Team for their assistance, sending each of you Light-Filled Boons. So it is.”
PLEASE NOTE: Until your body, heart, and soul feel that you won’t do this again (usually 21 days) I would suggest that you do this process each day for three weeks. It isn’t a bad idea to do this periodically, anyway, as anger (yours or others’) can cause this exchange to happen. As soon as possible after getting angry or feeling fear I would do this process so that your energy remains uncorrupted. If there is one gift you give yourself this season, it’s this process; I promise your life will change.
If you find this email process of use in your life, Source Legacy gratefully welcomes your donations – grace-for-grace. (It’s tax-deductible! And your support is how we continue to keep our fees affordable for the many instead of just for the few.) Have a wonderful, blessed Holiday Season, and may it be filled with tidings of Rebirth, Joy and, most of all, Love.
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All my Love,
Shelley
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PROPHECY AND THE SIGNIFICANCE OF 2012
by Shelley Oliver
What on Earth are we doing? Time is shrinking, expanding, then shrinking again. Many fear the end of humanity. If you have faith in Highest Divine Source, God of all that is, known and unknown, you can meditate on this issue and feel or see that we aren’t reaching the end of humanity but a new beginning.
The year 2012 and the Solstice are a beginning point. If you think of time as a 3-dimensional circle similar to a 3D clock, you would find that we are between nine and ten – or zero point. Each cycle is its own period of growth or evolutionary change for the planet and for humanity. Each person has their own cycle of growth which many track via astrology.
In time, which affects all things and all beings physical since Atlantis, we can see an entire circle of time as approximately 28,000 years. Each cycle is 2,800 years.
Cycle 0-1: Baby steps or early formative years.
Cycle 1-2: A search for individuality.
Cycle 2-3: Separation.
Cycle 3-4: Struggle for personal foundation.
Cycle 4-5: Looking for answers concerning how an individual fits the whole. Cycle 5-6: Seeking an understanding of expansion and oneness.
Cycle 6-7: Reconciling the past.
Cycle 7-8: Seeing the here and now as important.
Cycle 8-9: Knowing and seeing the dark and the light.
Cycle 9-10: The struggle to see the light in everything no matter how dark it seems so that only light exists, knowing darkness is an illusion. Cycle 9-10 takes us to zero point – which is the cycle we are now in. We are coming back to Zero Point in 2012.
The great “changes” or the prophesied “destruction of humanity” have been seriously discussed in circles scientific-to-metaphysical for a very long time. What I see and know to be true is this: We are beginning a new 28,000 year circle of time. OR... or if we can evolve enough we will enter “no time.” Every 28,000 years the planet changes poles and climates, and the calendar restarts – thus “Zero Point.” The BIG possibility, though, is this: “if” humanity will choose to evolve enough that the majority realizes violence is not the answer, Mother Earth will expand without further violence and peace will become the norm. It is still very possible this will happen. If and when we do find our balance in this, we will move forward into “no time.” What this means is time will no longer be needed as a way of keeping track. During Lemurian times we hadn’t any time. With this belief of “no time,” Zero Point means the planet, our Solar System, and all physical beings who reside here are no longer limited by time and our expansion is tripled or even unlimited. Our abilities (psychic and otherwise) will be freed. Mother Earth will benefit as well. She will be able to express her needs to us and be heard. Will we suddenly have a perfect world? Will humans suddenly love each other? Well what do you think? No. Everything is a process.
We have been in “zero transition” for approximately 13 years. Part of the global warming is caused by these changes. There is movement in degrees of polar energy which has caused instability – thus the tsunamis, earthquakes, tornadoes, and hurricanes. We will see more of the same and possibly even larger natural disasters until the (-) and (+) change polar positions and we each reach Zero Point. This could even happen before 2012.
At the same time we will lose dimensional boundaries which will make it easy to travel place-to-place. “Spacial” travel will be simple. The Grail Crystals, Lemuriata* Crystals, and Weather Crystals will be moved to Crystal Temples to create one system, and work together to create a matrix of gravity, polarity, weather and other systems so that healing any system (human, planetary, animal, etc.) will be simplified. We will be able to see beings from other realms such as fairies, angels, etc.
If humanity and the planet are unready for this change we will simply begin a new 28,000 year circle of time. If we are able to accept “no time” and allow our light to guide us, then we will begin Lemuriana. Lemuriana will be very like Lemuria with Love, Trust, and Faith replacing fear, anger, and war. Again, I will state: This change will not happen in a flash but ever more quickly from this time forward. More and more light will shine upon the darkness and illusions so that they can be reconciled and transformed, transfigured into light.
We have now to get it right. By this I mean what happens next is up to you. You can see this end circle time as dark or you can realize that this is an enormous opportunity to shift energy. The world mirrors you. If there are wars (as now) going on in the world, find your internal wars and let the struggle end. For each person who chooses this path the darkness and the illusions fade.
Meditate. In that quiet space see your internal struggles overlaid with external war. Now create bubbles of light around both struggles and watch them dissolve into no-thing-ness. In place of these struggles send out through your expansion into Universal Consciousness your positive beliefs in Self and the World. Light energy expands and creates 10 times more energy than dark because dark is an illusion. Let your illusions dissolve, let your light solve.
Love and Truth to you.
Shelley
*Lemuriata is a stage of progression toward restored Earth balance, or Lemuriana.
© 2007 The Source Legacy Foundation
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ONLY AN EIGHTH GRADE EDUCATION
What it took to get an 8th grade education in 1895
Are you old enough to remember when your grandparents and great-grandparents stated that they “only had an 8th grade education?” Well, check this out. Could any of us have passed the 8th grade in 1895?
This is the eighth-grade final exam from 1895 in Salina, Kansas, USA. It was taken from the original document on file at the Smokey Valley Genealogical Society and Library in Salina , KS, and reprinted by the Salina Journal.
Grammar (Time, 1 hour)
1. Give nine rules for the use of capital letters.
2. Name the parts of speech and define those that have no modifications.
3. Define verse, stanza and paragraph
4. What are the principal parts of a verb? Give principal parts of "lie,""play," and "run."
5. Define case; illustrate each case.
6.. What is punctuation? Give rules for principal marks of punctuation.
7 - 10. Write a composition of about 150 words and show therein that you understand the practical use of the rules of grammar.
Arithmetic (Time, 1 hour 15 minutes)
1. Name and define the Fundamental Rules of Arithmetic.
2. A wagon box is 2 ft. deep, 10 feet long, and 3 ft. wide. How many bushels of wheat will it hold?
3. If a load of wheat weighs 3,942 lbs., what is it worth at 50cts/bushel, deducting 1,050 lbs. for tare?
4. District No 33 has a valuation of $35,000. What is the necessary levy to carry on a school seven months at $50 per month, and have $104 for incidentals?
5. Find the cost of 6,720 lbs. coal at $6.00 per ton.
6. Find the interest of $512.60 for 8 months and 18 days at 7 percent.
7. What is the cost of 40 boards 12 inches wide and 16 ft. long at $20 per metre?
8. Find bank discount on $300 for 90 days (no grace) at 10 percent.
9. What is the cost of a square farm at $15 per acre, the distance of which is 640 rods?
10. Write a Bank Check, a Promissory Note, and a Receipt
U.S. History (Time, 45 minutes)
1. Give the epochs into which U.S. History is divided
2. Give an account of the discovery of America by Columbus.
3. Relate the causes and results of the Revolutionary War.
4. Show the territorial growth of the United States.
5. Tell what you can of the history of Kansas.
6. Describe three of the most prominent battles of the Rebellion.
7. Who were the following: Morse, Whitney, Fulton, Bell, Lincoln, Penn, and Howe?
8. Name events connected with the following dates: 1607, 1620, 1800, 1849, 1865.
Orthography (Time, 1 hour) [Do we even know what this is??]
1. What is meant by the following: alphabet, phonetic, orthography, etymology, syllabication
2. What are elementary sounds? How classified?
3. What are the following, and give examples of each: trigraph, subvocals, diphthong, cognate letters, linguals
4. Give four substitutes for caret 'u.' (HUH?)
5. Give two rules for spelling words with final 'e.' Name two exceptions under each rule.
6. Give two uses of silent letters in spelling. Illustrate each.
7. Define the following prefixes and use in connection with a word: bi, dis, mis, pre, semi, post, non, inter, mono, sup.
8 Mark diacritically and divide into syllables the following, and name the sign that indicates the sound: card, ball, mercy, sir, odd, cell, rise, blood, fare, last.
9. Use the following correctly in sentences: cite, site, sight, fane, fain, feign, vane , vain, vein, raze, raise, rays
10. Write 10 words frequently mispronounced and indicate pronunciation by use of diacritical marks and by syllabication.
Geography (Time, 1 hour)
1. What is climate? Upon what does climate depend?
2. How do you account for the extremes of climate in Kansas?
3. Of what use are rivers? Of what use is the ocean?
4. Describe the mountains of North America.
5. Name and describe the following: Monrovia, Odessa, Denver, Manitoba, Hecla, Yukon, St. Helena, Juan Fernandez, Aspinwall and Orinoco.
6. Name and locate the principal trade centers of the U.S.
7. Name all the republics of Europe and give the capital of each.
8. Why is the Atlantic Coast colder than the Pacific in the same latitude?
9. Describe the process by which the water of the ocean returns to the sources of rivers.
10. Describe the movements of the earth. Give the inclination of the earth.
Notice that the exam took FIVE HOURS to complete. Gives the saying "he only had an 8th grade education" a whole new meaning, doesn't it?! Also shows you how poor our education system has become! (No, we don't have the answers. And, yes, the editor failed this 8th grade test!)
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ADDICTIONS
by Marilyn Pyle
AM I AN ADDICT?
You wake up at 3:00 a.m. to go to the bathroom, pass by your computer and check your e-mail, and then you wake up at 6:00 a.m. and check it again with your morning coffee, only to check it again when you get to work at 9:00 a.m. You plan a romantic night with your wife and while picking up a bottle of wine you also pick up a pornographic magazine. You have had some stressful events in your life and are feeling overwhelmed so you light up a cigarette or buy a quart of ice-cream and eat it all by yourself – or you max out your credit card on a shopping spree. You stop by the bar for a drink and find yourself having three or four before you get in your car to drive home. You find yourself using anger, guilt, or fear as a way of interacting with those around you to get what you want. When viewed individually, you may justify that each is a harmless means to an end, but the path that they follow may lead to a place you did not expect to visit. Look carefully; these behavior patterns might be the red flags of addiction.
Addiction is defined as being abnormally tolerant to and dependent upon something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming; an abnormally strong craving. Addiction and addictive behavior are at the root level an attempt to control and gain power over self, another person, a situation, an event, or an outcome. The mind and body undergo the same physiological and psychological changes with these behaviors that they do with more threatening addictions (e.g., drug addiction).
I AM WHAT I THINK
Neurotransmitters are how the mind/body connection is made when we engage in things that give us pleasure. The pleasure-effect of neurotransmitters was designed by God to motivate us to form loving relationships, find quality food, and seek comfortable shelter. During pleasurable acts neuro-pathways are formed which compel emotional and physical reactions to repeat the pleasure. The things associated with obtaining the pleasure then become the triggers for seeking the pleasure. Food, sex, and drugs create some of the strongest urges. It’s no surprise, then, that advertisers capitalize on these triggers to seduce us into buying their products: the juicy, mouth-watering hamburger; the beautiful bikini-clad woman sprawled seductively across a shiny new car; the shirtless man with the ripped abs holding a soft drink; the happy couple walking hand-in-hand who no longer have pain, or sleeplessness, or intimacy problems because of the advent of a new miracle drug. The introduction of the trigger activates the urge that compels us to obtain that which we think we need to bring us pleasure. Hence, the mind makes it so in the body, and the body responds by making it so in the mind. It is a two way street: the mind propels the body to a particular action or behavior, and the body stimulates the mind through sensation. What began as a means to avoid pain and bring pleasure or satisfaction begins to do neither. Instead, a craving takes hold whereby more (or new) stimuli is needed to produce the same desired result.
The more intense the pleasure, the stronger is the urge to repeat it. Urges, cravings, and desires then take form and manifest in the body and are processed as a need when sent to the mind first (counter-clockwise spin). We have all heard or said, “I need _____ to cope”, “to get by”, “to be happy”, “to survive”, or “to get through this situation.” We need something only if we require a particular result, and when we need a particular result we have started trying to control an outcome.
The conditional nature of addiction has the addict creating the circumstances in which using the substance or behavior reaps the “reward.” Addiction then begins to be less about the use of the substance and ever more about the manipulative behaviors devised to allow its use; the addict becomes addicted to the pleasure derived from manipulation and its results. This is the addict’s reward – and it is called “psychological addiction.” Its pay-off? Control and power. Once the addict masters the art of manipulation, they begin using this as a way to navigate through the world. This pattern forms a strong neuropathway and can remain in place long after an addict is “recovered” from the substance abuse.
Most addicts who are lost in the throes of their addiction bemoan that they are powerless over their addiction and can no longer control it, for it becomes easier to blame the substance (or others) than to assume the responsibility that they gave their will away to a substance or an uncontrollable emotion (like rage). It is legion for addicts to blame others rather than face the hard truth that all recovering addicts eventually must face: that they chose irresponsibility, manipulation, control, and the illusion of power over authentic power, and that the issue is not external but internal. It is harder, yet, for the addict to understand his/her ability to create…
THE SCIENCE OF ADDICTION
Alcohol, food, drugs, sex, gambling, anger, rage, the internet, work, and even exercise can all become devices that an addict uses to avoid reality and to create an illusion of power. Repeated use of the substance or behavior hard-wires a neuropathway in the brain whereby the addict begins to believe that by indulging the addiction they are greater than they were without it: funnier, sexier, wiser, smarter, happier, richer, more powerful, etc. When the effects of the substance or behavior subside and the addict is once more faced with his/her own internal sense of powerlessness, they reach again for the external thing that creates the illusory feelings they crave (thereby avoiding real feelings). This pattern then becomes the vicious cycle that defines all serious addictions. The addictive “pattern” to which we refer is really just a series of pathways carrying false messages that eventually become habituated in the brain.
Pathways in the brain are “wired” together by neurons, and connections are made along these pathways when one neuron communicates with another. A memory is formed at these connection points where neuron meets neuron, and this vast network of communication forms a neuronet. The communication between neurons happens in the law of associative memory where groups of neurons communicate with one another (or fire) because a memory, thought, or an association has been made where they meet (juncture).
When neurons fire together over long periods of time, a long-term relationship is formed which establishes an identity. This interaction produces a chemical reaction by way of neurotransmitters which produce a specific effect within the body to either excite or inhibit the transmission of the signals from one neuron to the other.
Endorphins. “Endorphin” is short for "endogenous morphine," i.e., built-in heroin! It is structurally very similar to the opioids (opium, morphine, heroin, etc.) and has similar functions: It is involved in pain reduction and pleasure, and the opioid drugs work by attaching to endorphin's receptor sites. Serotonin has been found to be intimately involved in emotion and mood. Too little serotonin can lead to problems with anger control, obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), an increased appetite for carbohydrates (starchy foods), depression and trouble sleeping (which is also associated with depression and other emotional disorders), and suicide. Dopamine is strongly associated with reward mechanisms in the brain. Drugs like cocaine, opium, heroin, and alcohol increase the levels of dopamine, as does nicotine. Norepinephrine is important for forming memories, and is strongly associated with bringing the nervous system into "high alert." It is prevalent in the sympathetic nervous system, and it increases the heart rate and blood pressure. The adrenal glands release it into the blood stream, along with its close relative epinephrine (a.k.a. adrenalin). Acetylcholine has many functions: It is responsible for much of the stimulation of muscles, including the muscles of the gastro-intestinal system. It is also found in sensory neurons and in the autonomic nervous system, and has a part in scheduling REM (dream) sleep. GABA acts like a brake to the excitatory neurotransmitters that lead to anxiety. People with too little GABA tend to suffer from anxiety disorders, and drugs like Valium work by enhancing the effects of GABA. If GABA is lacking in some parts of the brain, epilepsy results. Glutamate is an excitatory relative of GABA. It is the most common neurotransmitter in the central nervous system (as much as half of all neurons in the brain) and is especially important in regards to memory.
When a person becomes addicted to a harmful substance or behavior, they are actually addicted to the chemicals produced by the brain in response to the stimulus of choice (alcohol, food, cigarettes, heroin, cocaine, sex, lying, power, control, etc.). Consistently repetitive behavior creates a neuronet of chemical reactions and responses: The substance (stimulus) acts like an “allergen” and the chemical reaction acts like an allergic response. The consequence of this dynamic is that the addict then craves the very thing to which he/she is actually allergic.
Over time, repeated bombardment of the cell with harmful attitudes, substances, chemicals, thought forms, and false emotions (e.g., illusory responses in the mind that are completely separate from the heart) wear the cell down so that when the time comes for that cell to divide it produces a sister cell with more receptor sites for those same neuro-peptides (the addictive cravings) and less receptors for the things that sustain life like nutrients, vitamins, and minerals. The body actually produces a cell that is designed for improper protein synthesis. This is how aging, disease, and the eventual destruction of the cell happen after years of self-abuse. Our thoughts can literally create our body or destroy it.
THE ROOT OF ADDICTION
The world we create within is the world we create throughout. All pathways have a beginning and an end. The pathway of addiction is fettered with illusions. The first illusion upon which all other illusions are based is that we are separate from God and create independently of Him/Her and each other. The vast responsibility of this self-lie creates fear, which creates a need. Need is the second illusion upon which all other illusions are based – the need to enhance Divine Reality because, as created, it isn’t enough. It follows, then, that the third illusion upon which all other illusions are based is that there is never “enough”. This creates a vacuum in the soul that will, if not filled by Divine Truth (for which we are each irrevocably coded), be filled by something. This “something” is the core of addictions.
In addiction and in separation we create another “god” outside of ourselves and True Divinity to idolize (whether it be the bottle, the syringe, the pipe, the cigarette, the buffet, the money, the pretty face, the hot body, the internet, the T.V., the job, the gym, the false-emotion, etc.), and it is to this self-created idol that we give our Divine power... because we believe those things make us greater than we were without them. It is the greatest of all great lies, of course, and these lies end up as illusions in our neuronets that crave continual stimulation from other illusions. We think we’re accessing something of authentic value by indulging the addiction (because this is the lie it tells us), but addiction only facilitates further separation from God and perpetuates our need to destroy ourselves and others. Why? Because a lie can only be believed if it attacks and obscures truth.
HEALING THE ADDICTION
If we heal our thoughts and false emotions by healing the cracks in our Seeding Cell, we will transform the falsehoods in our neuronets to Pure Form. (For information on Seeding Cell work, please see “The Source Legacy Workbook”.) When we restore our thoughts to Pure Form at the cellular level (beginning in the original cell to which all other cells look for their coding), we interrupt the sequencing of old “relationships” in the neuronet and create new “relationships” and identities. The result is that our thoughts shift; and when our thoughts shift, our behavior shifts. This creates new neuronets and new pathways, and the body thus creates new connections and new cells that no longer respond to the old stimulus – Pure Form cells which sustain life instead of destroying it. Oneness becomes restored, and we reconnect back to the very Source of life, no longer lost in separation, need, and war. This is the mind making it so in the body.
In Divine Reality illusion does not exist, and there is no separation between us and God for we are One and the Same. In Unity where there is literally no need, there is certainly no need for addiction.
© 2006 Marilyn K. Pyle
“The Body Report” is an ongoing supplemental newsletter authored by Marilyn K. Pyle for the Source Legacy Foundation.
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MARILYN K. PYLE:
Marilyn has been a Licensed Practical Nurse for two decades with clinical experience in internal medicine, family practice, orthopedics, mental health and pediatrics. Certified from the American Board of Case Management, Marilyn has six years of administrative and case management experience with two years of focus in chronic disease management and patient education. Marilyn is a Certified Medical Massage Therapist trained in the Zero Point Cranial System, a Licensed Massage Therapist and Bodyworker with National Certification, a licensed Minister of Divinity with a Ph.D. in Universal Sciences, and a Certified Aromatherapist. She operates a private practice in Orlando, Florida, where she specializes in deep tissue, trigger point release, Raindrop Therapy, Trauma Release, myofascial unwinding and release, detoxification and weight-loss protocols. With a Ph.D. in Universal Sciences and energy work, Marilyn's specific focus creates a bridge between psycho-spiritual root causes and the manifestation of physical dysfunction. Marilyn is also the owner and operator of "At-Your-Service" which specializes in outbound massage therapies and personal chef services. Based in Florida and serving the Orlando tri-county area and Daytona Beach.
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